Kelly Wigles wrote:Hey Jonathan, how well have you gotten to know the members of the jury? What qualities do you think they would want to find someone to vote for?
What does it mean to you having made it to the final 4 again?
I was so anxious before I played that I would be targeted early on and eliminated and it would completely negate any success I had previously. This is only the third ORG I've ever played and I won the first two I played in, so I put myself under so much pressure even thinking about playing again. But it's easy to have a great record if you don't put yourself out there.
I'm proud that I took the risk, I got this far and I have a reasonable shot at winning. I'm not going to sweep a jury and I haven't dominated this game, but I've gotten to Top 4 of 24 players and I don't think you could call me a goat in this scenario.
I showed in Faroe that I can't read a jury at all so I'm just going to put myself out there, warts and all, and if I get the votes, I get the votes. (If I even get that far). There are some people I feel I can really count on (Richard, Sugar) and there are others whose vote I will never win (Val).
Speaking of, the one thing I'm really disappointed in myself for doing is blindsiding Val. I got to know her really well after the finale of Indonesia and we bonded over having similar anxieties after winning our seasons but being generally lauded as poor / disappointing winners and wanting to gain the respect of the community. I just found myself forced into a position by the game where I had to make a move and a variety of immunities, idols and twists meant she was the only person I could vote for and start the sleeper cell alliance. I still feet shit about it though.