[Jeff Probst]

- Tue Oct 11, 2016 3:54:37 am #4224 Another round of Stranded, another blindside...

What did you make of the events of tonight and how do you plan on acting on them moving forward?

[Sierra]

- Tue Oct 11, 2016 5:21:49 am #4278 Sigh...

You know, I have so many thoughts and am too tired to spew them. Tomorrow I got nothing on my plate and I'm sure you will have an unbearably long entry to read from me again. PISSED. Not friendship.

Is Dan in front of me on the hit-list? I think it's possible yeah... will it stay that way if he's viewed as a better shield? Maybe not. I could go tomorrow. I'll throw immunity again anyway, can't have a challenge threat label. Tonight's blindside could have been avoided. I knew once PMs were winding down that either Ozzy would idol Heidi, or Heidi found it herself. I was just grateful to survive the vote at that point. There was no time for me to try to re-direct the vote.

I KNOW I could've flipped that vote to someone else if I had had a little bit more time, I fucking know it. The 6 who voted with me, anyway. It was just such a last minute check in and with that group of 6, it would've been hard for us to change that vote at all. So I left it where it was and prayed I didn't leave. Luckily I didn't, and I do think my social ties to at least some of them had to factor into that, on top of the fact that some people may feel better with two pairs still looming in the game, keeping them off the radar for now.

Ugh... we'll see what happens. I hope people don't split votes on me or Dan.

[Kelly Wigles]

- Tue Oct 11, 2016 6:29:41 am #4286 Hey Sierra, how do you think the rest of your tribemates see you? Do you feel like your loyalty to Dan is a good or bad thing for you down the line?

[Sierra]

- Tue Oct 11, 2016 8:59:02 pm #4324 They see me as robotic and possibly threatening, at least in some cases. I'm Dan's less personable sidekick, if I had to guess how my haters view me up in this bitch.

I'm all about dat self-preservation though. I think I'm gonna be okay tonight. Heidi and Tammy like me, I'm almost sure of that. They're putting in a hell of a lot of effort placating me if not. I think Dan is the target tonight, but I'm probably gonna take the fall if he wins immunity or comes off the radar. Likelihood of both of us sticking around doesn't seem very high. I feel like I've successfully moved under him on the "threat" list, but not necessarily the popularity list.

I don't know what's going to happen tonight, I feel I have very little control in tonight's vote, but I'm just trying to make myself a vote to be coveted for later on and just scrapping as much as I can. My loyalty to Dan is something that I think puts me in a better position to get 1st place, so I can't regret it if it bites me. I know some people might be onto me with this, but I am trying to show that I've been loyal to all my allies this game and am not a liar-type. I AM a liar type, but I don't want them to see clear evidence of that yet, need my image to stay somewhat unblemished. Damaging my credibility is not something I'm looking to do with still 11 people left... unlike with maybe Val, where it seems like people don't know where she stands already, and kind of seems to be alienating some people. Fuck this necklace twist, you guys are assholes for doing that. :)

[Kelly Wigles]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 12:52:27 am #4343 Does it scare you at all that you might end up being collateral to Dan's game?

[Mia Galeotalanza]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 12:56:13 am #4346 Slayerra <3

And girl what? Throwing immunity? WHY?

[Sierra]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 1:11:15 am #4365 Not really to be honest. I know that doesn't sound great, but it's not really an immediate concern of mine. It builds me up as a lackey type, but I think these people will be pleasantly surprised if Dan does leave and they might start to see some value in keeping me. Whatever mistakes I've made, if Dan does end up taking the fall, I think I can make up for all those mistakes if I can course-correct quickly.

I believe in the blueprint. Being loyal to Dan WILL produce more good than harm. I hope! But I'm okay with it if not. As long as in the moment, something feels like the right move/thing to do, I can't kick myself over it if it doesn't work out. My judgment is usually good to me in games, but I've been wrong plenty and if it happens again... yeah I'll be pissed, but I'll kick it with Rich and Drew and have fun ripping on these clowns.

That was the one stipulation I had at the beginning of this season: I KNEW I wasn't gonna betray Dan. I wanted to play the game, seeing how things go if I played a genuinely loyal game to at least one person. Am I thinking selfishly at the same time? Absolutely, it's a little bit of each. But in a weird way I'm pleasantly surprised with myself that I've been able to fend off my usual natural inclination to throw anyone and everyone under the bus to get ahead. I think Dan is going to be voted out tonight instead of me, and while that pisses me off, the game will go on for me if that happens. It would put me in the final 9, one vote away from having a full weekend to try to make some changes to the way this game is going. Tammy and Heidi HAVE to know that they need me. ESPECIALLY if they're genuinely not a part of the pre-game connection circle, which based on Ozzy blaming Dan's supposed impending boot on them to me, I don't think they are.

The Faroe hype that I build with them... is gonna be laid on so thick. Ozzy, Nate and Penner. I'm pitching that shit as a pre-game alliance like nobody's business. I am STILL the ultimate free agent in this game no matter how shit I've been to this point, and a Dan boot would free me up a bit more to go back to my old cutthroat ways. I'm REALLY trying to figure out exactly what Heidi and Tammy's plan is in terms of just how they plan on getting to the final 3 together. Based on what I know of the bonds in this game, there's NO REALISTIC AVENUE that will get it done. My gut says they need me, and need to give me at least a few rounds worth of a tryout as an ally.

If Dan leaves, I don't know if there's a single person in the game I can trust.

[Kelly Wigles]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 1:14:41 am #4369 In terms of pre-game alliances, wouldn't it be a stronger alliance that with you and Dan being so loyal to each other, coupled with your Indonesia past, that you are also guilty by association of it? Wouldn't that be a pot calling the kettle black sort of situation?

[Sierra]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 1:34:17 am #4389

In terms of pre-game alliances, wouldn't it be a stronger alliance that with you and Dan being so loyal to each other, coupled with your Indonesia past, that you are also guilty by association of it? Wouldn't that be a pot calling the kettle black sort of situation?

Wait what do you mean? I have no loyal to anyone other than Dan, so the whole Indonesia thing is a total myth at least in regards to me. I had no real allegiances to Drew (yet), and have never had allegiance to Val.

[Kelly Wigles]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 1:36:58 am #4391

In terms of pre-game alliances, wouldn't it be a stronger alliance that with you and Dan being so loyal to each other, coupled with your Indonesia past, that you are also guilty by association of it? Wouldn't that be a pot calling the kettle black sort of situation?

Wait what do you mean? I have no loyal to anyone other than Dan, so the whole Indonesia thing is a total myth at least in regards to me. I had no real allegiances to Drew (yet), and have never had allegiance to Val.

yeah I'm just saying that people could easily rationalize something similar for you.

[Mia Galeotalanza]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 2:59:34 am #4478 I was watching that challenge closely, did you throw with that "extra vote" comment girl? lol

[Sierra]

- Wed Oct 12, 2016 3:01:13 am #4484

I was watching that challenge closely, did you throw with that "extra vote" comment girl? lol

No, I just rushed to get my answer in. lol