- Thu Oct 13, 2016 11:20:55 pm
#5192
So, brief rundown. A lot of this is just to organize my own thoughts, because this is getting hectic. I think we're going to see a real turn of events in this game tonight. I just don't know if it'll be good or bad for me.
Me, Hayden and hopefully Sugar are going to be voting for Val I think. I am walking a fine line, trying to get BOTH sides of Nate/Penner/Ozzy, along with Heidi + Tammy to go with it. I realize the very real possibility of an idol coming out from the Faroe camp. Could it protect Val and send home someone on our side? Yes it could. That's why they CANNOT suspect that we're working with Tammy and Heidi. I've tried to vocally take "the lead" (a role I don't generally thrive in) with some strategic decisions to try to get Hayden to feel like I'm his shield. I hope that's working, I saw he had no problem playing wingman to Dan for a long time, and it's definitely a part of his strategy to keep people in front of him.
If Heidi or Tammy give Penner any sign that I sold him out, they might idol me out of the game tonight. It would be a genius move because as long as I'm here, there will NEVER BE a Faroe takeover. If there's one thing I can promise you, it's that. I want them GONE, GONE, GONE very quickly. At least one of them, maybe more.
I am going GUNS BLAZING for immunity tonight. Guns blazing because I REFUSE to be sent home before this 3-day weekend, I refuse. I NEED Val to not win it, and I wouldn't it past Heidi to protect her if she wins immunity by giving it to her a la Penner. At which point I'd be fucking DONE with her. Done. She'd go down in flames, I'd see to that personally. Even IF Tammy and Heidi sell me out to Penner over the weekend that I squealed his flip plan to them; I hope they just go with "I heard..." rather than "Sierra told me...". I NEED those two girls to want me there at F5 so I can possibly END them, get the FIC, and win the fucking game. They don't want to be surrounded with goats after playing such an aggressive game and being by FAR the best pair. I need them to think I'd consider staying true to them at that point, since I might have some presumed sealed votes on the jury.
So, hopefully the Faroe camp doesn't tip off Val to this (which they might, hopefully not at my expense) and she goes home. It's a big hump to get over, but I like my chances of winning the game if it happens. I really do. Of course for all I know the whole thing is a big plot and I'm out tonight. But if so... I left trying to make something happen. It's 6PM and this was probably my most proactive day since I've been here.
F3/F2. I'm still not sure. I'm banking on F3 because I know Poodz will do anything to encourage sticking out about the pack, whereas F2 has a tendency to water that down. My game (if I'm successful with what I'm trying to do) might be a little too understated to get much jury respect, but I hope I'm able to get people to respect me as they go to the jury. FTC, I'll take my chances. I don't like the visual of a me/Tammy/Heidi F3. It would make me look like such a fucking caddy if I were a juror. BUT, there are arguments against each, and they could prove interchangeable in the jury's eyes. I would rather get to the end with Hayden and Sugar and be 100% loyal all game just so I can say I finally did that, but that's the ultimate pipe dream.
Heidi knows she can't afford to sell me under the river to the Boy Scouts until at
least F8, I think. Which is hopefully gonna prevent her from trying to flip this vote off of Val. Already she seems to be starting to acquiesce to her original demands of Sugar or one of the boys leaving. That's right, cave, bitch, CAVE. God this fucking IDOL is in my goddamn way tonight and this has to go perfectly. I don't want Sugar to leave, I really don't, but I don't want it to be me either :(
I will be FUMING, absolutely FUMING if I leave tonight. In a way that I've probably never been in a game before. I am still LIVID about round two where these FUCKS wanted to boot me over a fringe inactive. I am LIVID that I was probably going to get last place in this game until Katie and later Jessica took me off the hook. I am determined and will stop at nothing to see to it that these people PAY for my being allowed to escape that mess. Not wanting to go out like a bitch like last time, no fucking way.
That wasn't as brief as I thought it was gonna be.
