- Tue Oct 18, 2016 5:41:09 am
#5929
Oh man... I'm still alive!!! That was close as fuck, and it looks like I made the right move sending Nate the fuck home. Good kid, good player, amazing idol hunter.
Hope he ain't too pissed.
So now... I'm at a crossroads in a big way... I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing this round, this feels like a round (this and F6) that could make me or break me, so I'm gonna use this entry to try to ease my paranoia and hash out what I think is the best approach moving forward.
I mean, me, Hayden and Sugar (which as of THIS MOMENT is still my ideal F3 as long as I can get there looking better than each) really don't have control over the next vote without Penner. But one thing I suspect, and if I'm wrong I can sink all of our games and feel like shit about it, I think Hayden and Sugar have bumped me off for Penner for the F3. At least Hayden has. If I go back after this game and read his confessional and see that he had every intention of taking me to F3 if he had his druthers, I will be genuinely shocked and kick myself. But he wants to win this game as bad as anyone, and I'm not sure with the proposed F4 between Penner, myself, Hayden and Sugar that I have a spot in the final three. I think I trust Sugar wouldn't scum me, and I REALLY don't want to risk angering her since she will be so mad and hate me for life, but I'm not sure about Hayden.
Okay before I forget, onto the questions:
Kelly Wigles wrote:Hey Sierra! Congrats on making it to the final 7!
1) So going by the trio's mentioned at tribal council, am I correct in assuming that you/Hayden/Sugar are now the deciding majority for the next vote?
Nah. With Penner, we are. But I'm just not sure how sold I am on Penner, and I believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that he'll side with Hayden and Sugar late if he can. He apparently played the "goat game" last time to perfection, and while I actually think Hayden and Sugar are pretty good players, that isn't the perception within this cast. It just isn't. And if Penner wins immunity at F4, I'm gone. That F4 is GREAT for Hayden and Sugar since they get to F3 either way. It's not as great for me because my relationship with Penner is iffy, and it just became more iffy since he caught me working with Heidi and Tammy, filling them in on the vote. Now, could that be used as an excuse to go after him either this round or next, because he's a DANGEROUS fucking player? Sure, I could use that as an excuse. Will Hayden or Sugar forgive me? That I don't know.
2)Where do you think each member of the old Saipan alliance stand in the tribe?
Which old Saipan alliance? The Heidi/Tammy/Penner/Ozzy one? I think Heidi and Tammy are absolutely in the hot seat. Makes a lot of sense to cut one here at 7 if we're voting as a block of 4, would still make getting through F6 hard (another roadblock), but at least it guarantees that neither Tammy nor Heidi is sure-thing immune for final 5. Ozzy is kind of confused after last night's vote, but I think he wants other players in the game with "threat" images, which gives me a bit of an in with him maybe, if I want to really cause a shakeup.
3) Also, do you mind talking to us about what you love about Survivor? Who's your favorite contestant of all time and why?
Love to! I love the strategy of the game first and foremost, but my favorite part of it is just watching the authentic human emotions on display in a crazy situation.. that was what initially hooked me to it as a little kid way back in the day. Boring answer I know, but that's definitely it. Favorite players include Brian Heidik, Rupert (yes, really, I was like 10 or 11 years old and he sent me an autographed pic of himself since I sent him some fanmail... that was the only fanmail I've ever sent out in my life), I was the BIGGEST Rupert fan back in PI/All-Stars, even if he kind of got famewhorish and meh afterwards.. appreciated that he replied to every letter), Fairplay, Chris Daugherty because I see a lot of myself in him and vice versa, Stephenie L, Sierra Reed which is kind of a weird pick I'm sure. I don't think I could single one out as an all-time favorite castaway though.
So, I'm really deciding between a few paths I can try to take right now, because call me an idiot but I am NOT okay with a final four of myself, Sugar, Hayden and Penner. Loyal as I am trying to be to those two, I genuinely don't believe with the information that I have that that is my best path to victory. And either Hayden or Sugar have convinced Penner that they'd scum me when the time comes, or maybe... just maybe, Penner doesn't plan on going to the end with us anyway since we're a known trio, and is trying to flip back and forth to generate a strong winning case (aka, see you later tomorrow, Sierra
). Which is something I will have to beat him to the punch on, and hopefully I have more clout with the people he would need to orchestrate something like that. Guy is LIVID that I told Heidi and Tammy what was going on, and while he's the consummate pro and acted like it was NBD, it was a BD I could tell. I will NEVER trust this guy. Makes all the sense in the world to a guy like Penner to go against the trio this round, and I can't have that come at my expense if I can avoid it.
But it's hard. Because why would Ozzy, Tammy or Heidi want to go with me against Penner, if they could instead go with PENNER against me? Breaks up a trio that they no longer would have to deal with at 6. Thing is if Penner does flip, maybe the others (all of whom are incentivized to keep my presence in the game) will convince him to go with Sugar instead of myself. I don't know.
Provided Hayden and Sugar are feeding Penner reasons to believe they aren't that loyal to me, Penner might stick with the plan tomorrow night. And if we take out Heidi or Tammy this round, then that makes the other one immune for Final 6. Which opens up a risky door for me. If me, Ozzy, or Tammy win F6 immunity, we can literally FORCE Penner out of the game by strong-arming Hayden and Sugar with the threat of getting purple-rocked, potentially positioning myself as a fucking HATED backstabber between two duos, but that's the kind of bold/almost stupid shit that the Danimal and company might respect. Would probably have to be a last second sort of thing so no one can compare notes, and then there's the possibility I get sold out at TC anyway. I need Penner out of the picture at some point in the next two rounds, I'm pretty set on that. I could NEVER, EVER live with my game if I went to F4 and got cut there because others viewed each other as a better shot of winning.
But if I sign off on Heidi's boot, I definitely increase my odds of leaving soon. And it's not like Penner would need me either at that point, I think I'm as much an obstacle to him as he is to me. Could be on a collision course together and soon. I feel like I've done a decent job priming Sugar and Hayden to the possibility that I won't go to F4 with Jonathan, but I want them to think there's at least a chance that I will (until/unless I decide not to).
I got some thinking to do. If the F6 is me, Hayden, Sugar, Penner, Ozzy and Tammy, I think Ozzy will want me to stay, but not if he thinks I'll side with Hayden and Sugar at F5... but if the F6 is me, Hayden, Sugar, Tammy, Heidi and Ozzy... then I might be put in a spot where it's either draw a rock or vote out H/S, and then I'd draw a rock which is a risk... Ozzy probably wouldn't want to go after Heidi or Tammy at F6 knowing the latter would be immune at 5... A lot would come down to immunity in that situation. Maybe the best move is to get Hayden/Sugar to get working on Penner and tell him that they'd keep HIM over ME, to make sure that he sticks with us this round, and then try to CUT him at 6 in an unconventional way. I don't know, I could just be an idiot and overthinking myself out of a GREAT situation, but if I complacently go along with this alliance and then end up in F3... did I really play that good of a win-worthy game?
Is it REALLY out of the realm of possibility Hayden could beat me, given his positioning towards the end was so much better? It's just every fiber of my BEING not wanting to let Penner get much farther. I CAN'T sign off on an alliance I don't believe in, I just CAN'T do it. I need to sharpen the knife and expose myself as the ultimate liar of this game, which could help me goat myself out a bit and possibly increase the odds I get brought to the end... I don't even know what I'm saying right now but I need to go to bed... pleasenodoublebootpleasenodoublebootpleasenodoubleboot.
